3 years passed and i am graduating soon (hopefully)

The thought of entering the working society stressed me out.

But i simply just cant wait to leave this fucking course.

In this 3 years, i felt that i didn't get myself to associate with any close acquaintances

Is it a regret? I would say yes. 

When kx asked me, "who is the one u are closest to in poly life?"

I kept silent. 

The ones i cherished, doesn't seemed to have any mutual feelings towards me.

Well, i reckon that we won't be working tgther anyway.

It's just that, i would have apply job by my own and it's simply terrifying and lonely.

 

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On a side note, i need to memorizing my Ophthalmic Pharmcology soon but....the moment i look at my notes, i just wanna sleep.

 *Inserts crying emoji*

My current love.

USS

so on monday i went USS with siling.
woke up early in the morning to have breakfast with siling and she overslept LOL
we headed tat after breakfast and realised tat are alot of people going to sentosa.
we took the battle galactica the moment we reached there. and it's the blue one.
fucking scary to start first in the day
she said my face was pale white after ride. panic striken LOL.
and den we tried on subsequent thrilling rides and i was really afraid of retinal tear becoz i am a high myope! blame in on the fact i studied too much opt, if i dunno i wont be so cautious about going for all this rides.
and after a day at uss, i had this headache and it lasted till ytd. hopefully i wont have it tday, if not smth is really wrong with me. :(

so common tests are over.
i really have no confidence of doing well in any of the modules. :(
odm is really shitz.

so thurs night,we went to surprise yt coz its her bday!
was really stressed out coz i have to plan this when i am still having my exams. i tink i should at least spend some effort becoz it's her 18th afterall.
so kx and i went to get her cake and her gifts, for wenxin as well!
i should say tat day we are relatively lucky becoz the employee of mini toons helped us with the wrapping and after which when we go popeyes for our dinner, we are given extra chicken becoz the manager changed our order slightly. hahahaha.
we stayed over her house. i fell asleep, awaken by tiang's army pics LOL
and we went back in the morning, fell into deep sleep when i reached home, and woke up at 1pm+


so we headed to superbowl for the class gathering. and instead of bowling, we went to play arcade hehehehe.
bishy bashy was really really very fun! as well as the drum mania!
i wondered when was the last time when i was there? is it with zy they all? i tink it will be better if there is coupons LOL.
hahaha. followed up was dinner date with fiona!
kfc's chez fries is nice omg, felt i hasn't eat tat for years
went her house, watched some videos and den when they started manjong-ing,
played with ashton and he is really very cute!
wished tat i got more time to play with him haiz.
and i watched ittakestwo with ming HAHAHAHA.


to yt: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! u pretty much wont see it and i really glad to have u in my life. telling me stories about tiang, entertaining me with ur accent etc etc. i am not good in words, dunno how to express wad i wanna say when i am writing and texting to u my bday wish.  but nvrtheless, u still treated me as a fren and more den willing to be my patient. hahaha. dun chiong assignments late and get more sleep! take cares and excel well in whatever u do

part 2 :)

So hi, i am back to update on sundown festival!
i stopped at btob!
after their performance was anthony neely! omg
he performed the sorry that i loved you, WAKE UP and shang chang de yong bao, as well a song i am not sure of!
so nice man to listen to his live *^.^*
next up is liu li yang. good live skills! she sang 2 songs which i knew! yan lei xiao le and wo jiu shi zhe yang! her latest song wasnt bad either! she said the people in both mosh pit, shall go supper with her hahaha. videoed her down as well! :>
the emcees came out and decided to give away free posters and tshirts. just like last year! and this is when the backstage crew came out and do sound checks! alice9 fans began yelling and screaming. i noe they are excited but the emcees are still talking. they actually can ignore them and continue looking at the people testing the guitar drums etc. no brains seriously, such a disgrace. ok no offence pls. i juz find them quite rude tats all.
ok finally its ALICE NINE! OMG THEY START OFF WITH HEART OF GOLD! SHOU WAS REALLY HANDSOME IN REAL LIFE AND HIS EYES!! I RECKON TAT HIS EYELIDS ARE BIGGER DEN HIS EYES LOL.
i kept on holding my hiroto fanboard, hoping tat he will look at my fanboard but he didnt. -.-+ :'(
there is really alot of hiroto fans! i tink its becoz of his health. i heard tat he fractured his ribcage. :'( really hope he will take care of his house man.
and throughout the live, hiroto was sending to flying kisses all around but he didnt give me anything.
he smiled several times and he really looked adorable. i loved his rabbit teeth hehehehe :F
but he dun really look good in real life leh. and his hair roots all coming out hahahahaha.
got once 4 of them ran to the front stage while kelian de nao still behind playing his drums LOL
the indonesia fan made a double sided fanboard, with a msg to a9 and asking hiroto to take care on the other side. she showed the a9 side to shou and shou saw! nodding his head!
got quite a few times shou eye contacted with me! no joke pls! i turned away some times becoz i wanted to look at hirotoooooooo. yet he nvr look at me me haiz
after tat got some fans threw up a leopard print bra and saga gave it to hiroto.
hiroto smiled in amusement, kissed it and threw it to the crowd again. not my side again zz
quite a few times tora and saga came over to our side but i dun really care. mostly i was looking at shou, nao and hiroto~ saga and tora looked exactly like how they looked in pc screens LOL
in comparison, nao looked abit...old and stressed up :x doesnt look like the bear i loved
they performed tsubasa, blue planet, rainbows, heart of old, fantasy and shunkashutto! all songs tat i knew :')
grabbed my cam and wanted to video but the indonesian fan beside me too enthusiatic, keep doing headbang and blocked my cam view -.-
i dun wanna waste all my energy looking at the cam screen and not looking them using my real eyes! >:(
so after tat they performed their songs, hiroto threw his guitar pick into the crowd in split seconds and nao went to the front stage and threw his drum sticks
and they bid farewell and went off. hiroto remained on the stage, bowing to us sincerely. love him<3 p="p">den a9 fans still not enough, still demand for encore. LOL who cares about them man LOL
so last performer was raymond lam! by this time i had alrdy removed my heels and wore my flats back, he performed 3 songs i tink. and got this lucky fan got selected.
they placed her in the middle of the stage. raymond lam danced to her, held her hand and kissed her gdbye on the cheek/forehead GOSH. he walked past our pit and got a guy shouted leng zai. and he replied i know in canto. yucks LOL.
my sis went to buy drink to quench her thirst and she came back with 2 sharetea lol and a bottle of pepsi. so i gained a free 80% honey milk tea ^_^
den the concert ended and performers are invited once again alice nine came out again, i immediatel hold up my fanboard and the rose for hiroto!!!
one of the btob member gangnam styled out LOLOL
alice nine came out and stood at where vivid stood last year. i rmb last yr wasnt fun becoz i am not at the mosh pit, and i was surrounded by many teen top fans. i have no fanboard too! who can give me fan service man. :'(
ok here come the climax lol
i held up my fanboard and rose. with 2 bubble teas LOL
i tink i got shout for hiroto
shou turned and den nao and hiroto turned as well.
not at me obviously. nao's glaze must be on my sis and hiroto is on tat indonesia girl.
but shou saw me and signalled me to give hiroto. hahahaha
i didnt noe he is sort of "talking" to me, so dumb seriously.
hiroto turned again and waved to the indonesia girl. smiled to her and gave her a thumbs up.
and he juz turn and wave to me in less den 2 secs -.-
he turned and faced the front again.
shou turned back and signalled me to give it to him again!
he noticed me LOL.
i should have did his fanboard and i bet he will take the rose man. haiz. :'(
jkjk.
ok so the performers left and alice nine walked past us once again.
i held my rose up high but he didnt take. :(
he gave the indonesia fan a flying kiss and nao waved bye to my sis.
ok den btob walked past and the members picked the santa hats threw up by fans.
nice ppl seriously.

in conclusion, though hiroto didnt give me much fan service. but i still enjoyed it(maybe becoz shou noticed me hahaha)
i cant really believe i saw them in person.
i am really very lucky
saw vivid and alice nine. the 2 bands which i had loved the most.
my life is, a quarter filled.
thanks. :')

sundown fest'12

decided to blog because i wanna make this into a memory, for eternity.
i am so gonna blog out the details as exact as possible ahahahaha.
so i went to the marina promenade in the morning, approx 10+am? quite little people was there queueing.
i should say the queue is much lesser den last year(when i queued to see vivid)
and the sun was ultimately hot man. i got sunburnt at my back zz.
so after the scorching hot sun, came the thunder and it eventually started raining.
luckily they provided us with ponchos. unlike last year, whole management sucked.
so it rained around 1+hr? i not sure.
and den we waited till 5.30pm when the gates finally started to open.
they even have bag check somemore.  prohibiting ppl from bringing food and drinks inside.
my sis held onto my tix and since she has no belonging with her. she ran the our respective mosh pit first( With my tix!) luckily she came out in time and i was able to go in.but not a good "seat" though.
 not near my hiroto kun haizz. but better den nth. i was standing near the "runway". so it's good to a certain extent. so standing at our respective positions, we waited all the way till 8pm. there was this indonesia girl standing beside my sister, she was a hiroto fan. my legs felt like it was gonna break because i switched to heels immediately when i reached where i was. i totally forgotten the actual concert usually starts after the sun goes down, at 8pm. -.-
luckily, there are performances to entertain us. like some local rock band, cj dance crew. hehe there is this cute guy in cj dance crew, haha he looked into ahming's camera! and this singer who sang 末日之恋. i took out ahming's camera to test it works but somehow the singer saw me filming him and looked at me. he sang really well though.
there are also opera and lion dance performance LOL.
so after the "warming up'' performances ended. they aired a series of sponsors advertisements again and again. to tink tat i watched it from 530pm to 8pm last year lol.
the crowd roared into excitement when the lights go off and the advertisement stopped.
and there came the emcees of the day. Peifen and Liteng!
i saw liteng's fanboard at the cat3 category LOL

after the emcees thanked the sponsors, they announced the first performer of the day, which is BTOB!
fangirls immediately went crazy hahaha, and the first song they performed was INSANE! and i immediately started videoing down. there was this guy who is quite cute! his name was minhyuk! as expected from kpop bands, they gave lots of fan service LOL thereafter i kept taking pics of the minhyuk. i guessed most of the them eye contacted with me, but i didnt take note of the times like wad xmm always do hahaha! and ya, some of them smiled to my camera.

well.. shall continue next time when i was free. becoz it is 230am alrdy and i have to wake up tmr at 6am:(